it's the little things

The absence of a full-time job and never-changing schedule has left me with an inability to develop any routine. I guess it's one of the perks of having a full-time job, but it's nothing to make me want to go back to one. I feel much more in control of what's going on in my life because I feel like I have more time to do things that I want to do, instead of having to fit it around a job where someone else determines when you have time to live your own life.

I still worry about money, and having enough to pay bills, but it's beginning to look like I'll be okay. I don't get to live as lavishly as before, but it's okay. I really need to learn to appreciate what I've got and quit lusting after a life I can't afford. Besides, I really have nothing to complain about.

I have started freelancing though! I keep procrastinating on redesigning my website because I fear the coding it will take. I know it won't be that bad once I start, but nothing is more intimidating than a blank page.

shirt: forever 21
skirt/cardigan: LOFT
shoes: urban outfitters

black dress

I love this dress I got from Target a week or so ago. I'm a sucker for simple black dresses though because the possibilities are endless and it's a cinch to throw it on with some jewelry and a cardigan if I just can't think of anything else to wear or I'm running short on time. This dress will definitely be a staple for summer. And can we talk about this bracelet? I'm in LOVE with it. It's so different than any other piece of jewelry I own and I'm really excited to incorporate it into more outfits! Just wearing it makes me feel fancy.

dress, belt, cardigan: target
broques: modcloth
bracelet: LOFT
heart necklace: etsy
cluster necklace: forever 21
vintage ring: antique store

working on my style

One thing I do love about my new job at LOFT is that it challenges me to come up with interesting-LOFT-inspired outfits everyday! Since I'm still new and haven't yet bought enough to wear what they sell, it's been even more challenging since I have to reinvent my existing wardrobe. Not to mention I'm really trying to avoid spending money that I don't need to spend... it's not going so well. A good thing is that my wardrobe is slowly expanding to include pieces that are much better quality and hopefully ones that I'll hang on to for a few years to come. I still have LOFT pieces from 3-4 years ago that I love. It's all for good, right?

top, shoes, skull bracelet:urban outfitters
skirt:target
gold/black bracelet:etsy
necklace: lotus boutique

new new new!

My first fashion post of 2013! So what, it's already 4 months in but better late than never, yea? I don't really know what I'm doing with my life right now. And the fact that I have no solid future plans is scary to me... so I just try not to think about it. I'm working part-time now and I still don't know how I feel about it. But when I think "Would you rather be back at your desk at your old job?" I respond to myself with a resounding "HELL NO." Then again, I can't imagine myself working retail for very long either.

What does that mean? Why don't you just change something if you don't like it?

I'm trying. At least, I think I am. It's just that I really don't know what I want to do. I love doing graphic design... but I really hated 9-5 every. damn. day. The monotony was slowly killing me and I could feel it. So freelance then, right? Maybe that's where I need to go. Building up a client base will be the hardest and most important thing I need to do, and I'm working on that. Slowly, but surely. But I honestly wouldn't mind going back to a 9-5 if it catered more to me as a creative individual, hindered by a lack of windows or the inability to surf the net unmonitored every so often.

I know I'll figure it out. It's just the when that I don't know. And that's okay. I'm learning to be okay with that.


ring/shirt/tights: forever 21
skirt/belt: target
shoes: urban outfitters
lipstick: fuchsia fusion from revlon