to the brink

So much has happened in the last week it's hard to put it all into words! Once things calm down a little more, I'll update in depth. If you follow me on twitter, you know by now that I got a new job as of Friday! I'm so excited! But again, I'll go into that more later ;]

Ugh, I started writing this post yesterday, but then my internet went out right in the middle of it, so I lost most of what I wrote and had to post-pone until today :/ Anyway, today went by.. I'll say slow-fast. Looking back on it, the day seemed to be short, but this morning it seemed to drrraaaaaggggg. I was so tired! At 3am this morning, Chris and I awoke to the lovely sounds of Fish gagging up a storm, subsequently blowing kitty-food chunks all over my sheets, bed skirt, some clothes, and Chris' camera bag... to make matters worse, Chris threw paper towels we used to clean up the mess in the toilet, which then lead to a clog, which then lead to poor Chris plunging it out for close to half-an-hour. He's such a good man though, he didn't give up and fixed it even after helping me clean kitty barf AND even though it was 3am! He's the best!

In other, somewhat lame and probably unimportant news, I finally found some gray (NOT silver) nail polish yesterday! And since I just got finished painting my fingernails my favorite mint/pistachio green, I painted my nudie toenails:



This crappy phone picture does the color no justice! And yes, someone told me I have big toenails... I am quite aware, my index toenails are huge. But I like my other toes :]

On to an outfit post! After reading Jasmine's recent Dynamic Duo post on Transient Withdrawal, I was totally inspired to try this outfit! I realized that I had the same dress and so I wore this outfit the very next day! I actually took these pictures Thursday night, since I had Christopher and he wouldn't get off work until late late Friday.





cardigan/headband: gap
dress/bangle: forever 21
flower pin: gift from a friend
boots: target



I got SO many compliments on this outfit! And to think I wasn't too confident in it at first! The dress is a tad too short, but it was too hot to wear tights. Extreme shortness seems to be a trend in Forever 21 clothing! Most of the dresses I own from there I end up wearing with tights. I felt the boots balance out the shortness in this case, though. Another thing that made me a little wary was the cardigan. I am trying to get over this problem I've had since I lost about 20lbs in highschool. I got so excited about clothes actually fitting that I had a habit of buying things that didn't really look that good on me or even things I didn't really like that much just because I fit in them! I think in this case though, I had been looking for a red cardigan for so long, I just got excited and snatched up a medium without thinking. A medium would usually fit me fine, but Gap sizes run strange sometimes. But, instead of getting rid of it, I just wear it as a top instead of a cardigan. Although I wish it were a bit shorter so it hit my hips in a more flattering manner. Oh well.

So aside from the hectic work goings-on that I've been dealing with, I was also MIA this weekend because I decided to give my personal site an overhaul! Check it out when you get a chance! casolberger.com

I also revived my tumblr, so check that out too!

if one door closes...

My office-mate, Laurie, and I were called into my CEO's office today with the CEO, COO, and the head of print production of the "ad agency" that I work for. I was handed an ad I did earlier that morning with red pen marks all over it, indicating the errors I had made. Most of the glaring errors where price discrepancies while the rest were stupid, cosmetic and totally unnecessary. The CEO told me all that I had done wrong, completely overwhelming me and catching me off guard. The way we work is, Laurie and I do the ads, and another coworker (my supervisor of sorts) is then supposed to proofread the ad, tell me my mistakes, which I fix, and give to the production department to proof again, who then sends the ad to Nikon, who gives a final proof before it's printed. The ad that was shown to me had made it all the way to production with all the errors I had made. No one ever came to me to tell me that I had made a mistake, like they're supposed to. Instead, I was completely caught off guard and I broke down in tears as I tried to stand up for myself and explain why I made the mistakes and felt like I just wanted to crawl under a rock. It was awful. Laurie just sat there silently while I pleaded my case. I couldn't believe it. My supervisor is what I considered once of my best friends at this job, and instead of coming to me, telling me I made a mistake (like what's in her JOB to do, and what also would be FRIENDLY of her to do) she instead just got me in trouble. In such trouble that it involved all three of those higher-ups I mentioned in the beginning. I feel, "thrown under the bus," as a contestant on a Brave reality tv show might say. I was, and still am, so upset. This didn't have to happen. I didn't have to get called out, but I was and I cried and felt like the stupid little crying girl who can't take any criticism.

It hurts. I feel betrayed. And all this when I was just starting to come to terms with my job and the fact that it was boring but that I was getting paid well and it really wasn't that bad. Oh man. I hope I don't get fired. I just bought this laptop and still need to pay it off. I don't know what I'm going to do. Laurie had to stay in the meeting once I left, and they gave her the same treatment. She has a strong feeling she's going to be fired. After 10+ years. I don't even know what I'm going to do if they fire her! She's my office-mate! I'll be all alone in that little room... unless they put someone else in there with me. Please God no. At least let me sulk and pout alone in my office. And I really hope they don't put my supervisor (the one who caused all this) in there with me. I'd die.

I already wanted to leave Mobile, get a more creative job and finally live a life I want to live... but I really wasn't planning on pursuing that until after the holidays. But the way things are looking now... I dunno. I'm worried about all this going down right before the holidays, before my laptop is paid off, before I've saved the money I wanted to save... but as long as I can stay for the holidays, I don't care after that. I don't think they'll fire me per say, but I definitely don't put it past them to "encourage me to quit."



*sigh*
With all that said, at least the sky was pretty on my drive home. And since I was so upset, I decided not to make an outfit post, although I did dress extra cute today. After crying all my makeup off, I just wasn't in the mood. I'm gonna make it through this though, I have no doubt about that. I already have some ideas! Onward and upward!

quick

SO. I ended up not feeling much like an outfit post yesterday. My outfit wasn't all that great anyway. Well... it was alright. Not one of my best, but nice enough. And while I didn't get a legitimate photoshoot, I did take a cellphone pic as a preview of sorts.



I wore a bluish, leopard-print cardi and a black dress from Forever 21, and some black Urban Outfitters flats. The locket is a hand-me-down from my grandmother, and it even has a picture of my dad's uncle and cousin in military garb from way back when! It's pretty cool, I love learning about family histories!

In other news, Christopher got a real job! I'm so proud of him! He now works for a printing/design company in Mississippi! He finally gets a steady paycheck and a steady schedule! The only downside, it's an hour and fifteen minutes away from Mobile :[. Which means he'll be commuting that much everyday and will eventually move back in with his parents to save on rent and gas. I guess with good comes bad, but I'm so happy for him overall. It'll really work out for the best, and once he's able to save some money, hopefully we'll be able to move to Atlanta in a year or so! EEE!

The holidays are fast approaching and I can't wait! I love cold weather and cold weather activities! Not to mention cold weather fashion! I'm going try to try to do all of my Christmas shopping this year from etsy. I think it'll be challenge (especially for my little bro, he is so hard to shop for! he might end up just getting presents for his new puppy instead! hehe) but ultimately satisfying and rewarding. Talk about unique gifts! I've got to start shopping soon!