Wednesday, October 26, 2011

dreams // part one

I've been having a lot of strange, vivid dreams lately, so I thought I'd jot them all down before I forget. And since I'm weird about dreams and premonitions and superstitious things, I've been looking up the "meanings" behind what one dreams and trying to see how/if they apply to my waking life. I used this site as a reference... because that was the first result when I google'd "dream meanings" ... haha. I collected excerpts that coincided with my dream and/or applied to situations I'm currently dealing with.

Chris and I are driving (I'm driving my car that is) over the same bridge I drive over everyday to pretty much anywhere we need to go, especially to where I work and to the gym. The sun was setting fast, and as we began to drive over we saw two groups of Blue Angel-type jets flying in sync. As they criss-crossed through the sky, they began to drop fireworks, so I told Chris to grab my iPhone and start recording a video. He started recording, and shortly after, the groups of jets came barreling toward one another when they both collided, resulting in a huge explosion. We kept driving, Chris kept filming... shocked as shrapnel and fire engulfed the bridge and the water below. And then I woke up...

bridge: To dream that you are crossing a bridge signifies an important decision or a critical junction in your life. This decision will prove to be a positive change filled with prosperity and wealth in the horizon. Bridges represent a transitional period in your life where you will be moving on to a new stage. If the bridge is over water, then it suggests that your transition will be an emotional one.
crash: To dream that a plane crashes, signifies that you have set overly high and unrealistic goals for yourself. You are in danger of having those goals come crashing down. Alternatively, the crashing airplane represents your lack of confidence, self-defeating attitude and self-doubt. You do not believe in your own ability to achieve those goals. Loss of power and uncertainty in achieving your goals are also signified.
explosion: To see explosions in your dream symbolize your repressed anger. The rage that you have been holding in has come to the surface in a forceful and violent manner. Your unconscious is trying to get your attention.
fire: Depending on the context of your dream, to see fire in your dream can symbolize destruction, passion, desire, illumination, purification, transformation, enlightenment, or anger. It may suggest that something old is passing and something new is entering into your life. Your thoughts and views are changing.
driving: To dream that you are driving a vehicle signifies your life's journey and your path in life. The dream is telling of how you are moving and navigating through life. If you are driving and cannot see the road ahead of you, then it indicates that you do not know where you are headed in life and what you really want to do with yourself. You are lacking direction and goals. Similarly, to dream that you are driving at night suggests that you are unsure of where you are headed in life. You are experiencing obstacles toward your goals. Perhaps you do not want to see what is ahead for you or you are afraid to confront certain issues. You may be feeling apprehensive about the future.

So, what I'm getting out of this dream is that I'm unhappy... angry even, at certain things happening in my life right now, and I've been ignoring and repressing those feelings for a while. Therefore, in order to change, I'm coming to a critical point in my life where I have some decisions to make and new goals to attain, even though I'm not sure where they will lead me or how I'll get there. However, the goals I'm setting for myself are high, indeed, but I don't think they're too high. I more agree with the idea that I'm apprehensive, unsure, and am having feelings of self-doubt and negativity towards my ability to achieve the goals I want to achieve. And this all totally makes sense. I'm unsatisfied with the way some of my life is going, and I'm getting to the point where I'm ready to change... and like huge change. I've already ordered some books for guidance, and hopefully they'll lead me in the direction I need to go!

This was such a long post! I'll post more dreams later, but I think this is good for now.